Tuesday, March 11, 2008

I've finally returned from my blogging hiatus. . .

The last several weeks have pasted by so quickly for me. I'm sure that is a sign I'm entirely too busy and should cut some things out of our schedule. That is just so difficult to do.

We have been following the Live Like You Were Dying series at our church. It has been a great opportunity for me to focus on what is truly important in my life. It has been tough at times to really look at myself and see what God must be seeing. I want to truly love deeper and speak sweeter. Don't just pretend that you love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Stand on the side of the good. Love each other with genuine affection, and take delight in honoring each other. Romans 12:9-10

God is slowly peeling away the crusty layers of my heart and showing me the way to genuinely love others as well as myself. Some times this process isn't very pretty. I've seen ways that I've failed and need to mend relationships. I've seen how carrying the heavy weight of unforgiveness can change the filter through which I experience those relationships. I'm so thankful that God is with me for the long haul! May he strengthen your hearts so that you will be blameless and holy in the presence of our God and Father when our Lord Jesus comes with all his holy ones. 1 Thessalonians 3:13

Elaina had so sweetly reminded me of how tender God's love is for us. I was having a rough morning. I was asked to sub for a teacher friend and I was already feeling over tired. I wanted to help out my friend so I agreed. Elaina woke up feeling tired and cranky. She also complained of feeling dizzy and having a headache. Since time was short for finding a new sub I called Nana to see if she would keep Elaina. After she said she would love to, I felt so sad. Not sad because she was willing to love on Elaina when she need it but because I selfishly wanted to be the one to comfort her. Elaina heard me telling her daddy my feelings. She held both of my hands in hers and said it will be okay Mommy because you are in my heart. A great reminder that all will be okay because God is always with us in our heart!